Rachelle, the host of My Life Monday, has left today's topic open for us to choose our own. I have changed my mind about the topic I have picked about a dozen times, but in the end I decided to go forth with it. Today: Behind the Makeup.
I've worn makeup since my mom started letting me. I was excited to wear it and I always have. It was fun, flirty, sassy, dramatic, and unnecessary. I could easily not wear any (especially in the summer when I was tan) and be just fine. Then Lupus came into my life, wreaked havoc on my face, and makeup became necessary. In fact, that was my very first symptom of the disease--the characteristic red butterfly shaped rash across my face. I have high hopes of the medications taking it away, but so far no luck. So I use makeup and lots of it every day to cover the rash. Most of my friends say they don't notice it that much, but they also don't know that how much I'm covering it up!
Behind the makeup is a very red face that may or not fade. I'm still getting used to it and trying to accept it. There is some permanent damage that will never go away, but I'm looking forward to the day when we find the right cocktail of medication that will make most of it fade and makeup can be fun and unnecessary again. This is me, behind the makeup: After the full makeup regime: